Sunday, February 22, 2009

sunday morning

its white and shiny outside and very, very cold but in  warm way.
sammy rolled out of bed and incoherently grabbed his keys, heading out to kinko's to complete his project. caryn is asleep, but she will be stirring soon, and then both of my companions will be heading out for the day, to work and think and breathe and exist in their lives that are always so separate. we are all alone with ourselves, all the time. that would be sad for a boring person. its fun for me, though. a little too much fun, maybe. this is probably the issue with my inability to harbor a healthy, happy relationship. i make myself happy enough, and bringing someone else into the situation just makes things complicated and very much less than fun. and people do these things that don't make sense to me. just leave me alone and respect the other people in your life. sheesh. i dont want to go into the details, they won't matter once some time passes. that's funny because that's life. and its so easy once you see it clearly.


exercise is good stuff. and free, too!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

frustration is not a source of motivation for me. i tend to feel very hopeless and overwhelmed. i require quiet and time in order to accomplish anything, and both of these seemingly insignificant notions appear to be impossible to obtain. 

i can't even muster up enough thought for this post.

Friday, February 20, 2009


phew!
just arrived and i feel fine, so fine.